To my husband....

Finally got the opportunity to pen down some thoughts I have been going through and to thank my husband for his true love...

Three days post my childbirth we left the hospital. As I stepped out of the hospital, the new life started dawning onto me. We reached home around 16h00 and the first emotional reaction I had was surprisingly nostalgia seeing the empty house. My husband got busy setting things together but I had a sudden urge to cry out loud - a quick recap of the beautiful 13 years my husband and I had with each other since our early 20s went on in my mind.. all the experiences we had together, the exciting holiday trips, the laughter, the separation for studies, the relations we created with the families and several other milestones we achieved together. As much as we love our daughter to the core and delighted to have made her, I suddenly missed what we beautifully had it together... it was indeed an end of an era and entering into the new phase of parenthood. It is difficult to express what I was going through, especially with the sudden drop in hormones and all the postpartum pain, but I am ultimately grateful and thankful to be with him - my strong positive rock in life! 

My delivery happened during the Covid times and with no parental support. For the first child, parents are generally both excited and anxious and for us, these emotions just got multiplied. When my water broke and we rushed to the hospital we both were clueless as to what to do next and simply relied on the hospital expertise and us being with each other - despite being oblivious to the next steps, we mustered up the courage and gained reassurance in each other's company. We both understood that we need to go through this with as much valor and equanimity as possible, for our daughter. 

On the day of the labor, it is nothing that I could have ever imagined. Everything was new and everything was anticipated.. the only support system that got me through the 12 hour long labor day was seeing my husband in the room from time to time. He kept a positive smile throughout although I am certain it would have been very tough for him to see me in pain - after all, this was all new to him as well but he could not lose his composure for me. 

During my pregnancy period, there several things that he used to order online both for our baby and myself which I wasn't even aware of. He used to play some contests on my behalf and simply surprise me with gifts. He literally built out the baby room and used to show me the end product. From diapers to pram, he used to research every day and show me the results for the final decision. It was the smoothest pregnancy any woman could have asked for as he did not want to burden me and had the best interests of our daughter and myself. 

If I look back now on the entire period, there were some difficult times especially with the physical stress but mentally he tried to make it as peaceful as possible for me. With our daughter in our lives, we are both going through the sleepless parenthood but trying to make each other smile and laughs where possible with the new developments in her life... Trying to make it smoother for us even if it is a tough path. 

This blog is entirely dedicated to my husband who has been the pillar through my life - caring, empathetic, positive and with always a beautiful smile, especially when I am concerned. I genuinely could not have gone through the pre and post delivery if he wasn't around trying to handle things with utmost commitment, love and bravery. I want to thank him from the deepest of my heart for making it easier for me and for taking care of me through the tough times hiding any of his fears. 

In my life, if I ever made any right decision, it is choosing him as my life partner. The love and commitment have only grown over the years through the testing times. I could not have asked for more in all honesty and I truly love you for the way you are, my beau! :-)